10
The day would start just like any other day... Id wake up when i woke up... Fucked around... Tried to get my shit together but that never fucking worked! Turn on the TV, bla bla bla... Right around 5pm or 6pm id open a bottle of wine and tell myself not tonight.. just keep it cool!
But around 7:00pm once the first bottle was cleaned out the Itch would start... it always started out soft, but i knew it was there... Id ignore it keep watching the TV, then id feel it on my leg, scratch the leg and then the calf would start to itch.. it wasnt one of those itches you could really scratch 0- kinda below the skin kinda thing... Once it hit my back and the bottom of my neck, I knew I wasnt going to be able to let it go... id try, I really did try, at least I thought i tried! When i look back at it, I dont think i actually tried at all... but ya know what can ya do...
So when the itch hit the back of the head that is when I kinda knew i wasnt going to last much longer...
The second bottle of wine was open and then id pick up the phone and make the call...
"Hey Whats - whatcha doing?
My voice was calm and cool (at least that is what i thought - right - did want to seem to anxious!
Not Much - want some company
Yea - I think i do... when can you come over...
"Ill be there in 10"
And that was it.. once I heard those words the Itch was gone... Now the fire started to kick in...
The thing is I knew it wasnt really going to be 10 minutes - sometimes it was 30 sometime and hour... but it didnt matter - once i heard those words - it just changed..
The Fire was a different sensation... not as irritating... but a feeling that I knew was going to explode any moment...
The next part was when i got the call - "Hey Im outside" That makes the fire feast...From your head to your toes... so soon, so close...
Id open the door and she would walk right in... kiss me on the cheeck and walk into the bedroom.
id follow with the lights dim and id look down and on the table there it was...
That Fucking Pipe and that Fucking Rock...
Id start to sweat... but trying to keep it cool - say
Hey - Lets have some fun...
id walk over to the table, pick up the pipe, put a little Rock in it and fire it up....
BOOOOOOOMMMMMM
There it was - like hot snow...covering your whole body....
Everything melted away - the pain, the depression, loneliness, a wave of blessings fills your body!
Nothing is wrong - everything is right (for the moment)
Thats the thing though - Crack only lasts about 10 minutes or so - so once you start to come down, you need that hit again, and again and again..... until its all gone!
Once the hour is over...she gives me a kiss on the cheek and says see ya later...
Thats when the Fire Snow starts to melt, the pain comes back, the depression, the loneliness all come back... from there you cant sleep... you sit, lay in waste.. only wanting to get that next hit...